I am already so mentally exhausted by this week and today is only my Monday.
I close tonight at work. We close at 12:00am but I have to do all the after close shit and the rule is we can’t clock out until its been at least 30 minutes after close (which is some bullshit but w/e). So I'll get home around lets call it 1:00am.
Then I still have to eat and shower and get that garbage done and go to bed. That's not counting having a little bit of hang out time with my husband. Which probably won't happen, which makes me super bummed because we just started exploring our Minecraft world a bit more and I just ran a relax and do that.
But nope! I'll be getting in bed at let's call it 2:30am. (realistically it might be a little later if I have to cook).
I have to go to bed because I have to wake up at 7:30am so I have an hour to get ready and leave to be at work at 9:00am. The icing in the cake: I am training a new hire. :’)
Some new students are joining the choir I'm in (it's the varsity choir), which is totally cool, except one of the students is a girl who doesn't like me for some reason. (I have no clue why.)
She is so aggressive towards me. She likes to pretend I don't exist and act like my opinions don't matter. I thought I would never have to deal with her again after the school musical closed, but apparently the universe decided that wasn't enough.
I hate that I'm dreading going to class. I shouldn't be afraid of her. I just don't want to be belittled by some underclassman who thinks she's above me. She is not above me. I will not let her win.
I absolutely hate shopping for clothes on amazon cause it forces me into mens or womens at every turn like I just wanna look at clothes
I constantly day dream about having a girlfriend but no girls like me :( I've had bad experiences in the past with them so I feel like it's a way of hurting myself when I daydream cause I end up shaming myself for it and I feel foolish when I think I'll ever have a girlfriend:'/
Some day I wake up, look at the news, and feel deeply the burden of my existence
Of living on a planet that is condemned if we don't do anything, but we spend more time arguing about than doing, and the point of no-return has been passed since long
Of seeing rich people, politicians, racists, being so disconnected from reality that they think imposing their view is necessary, despite posing literal threats to many of the less privileged
Of trying, so hard, to do the right things, to vote, to recycle plastic, to buy local, to be an okay person, but knowing that this is a drop in the ocean and singular efforts will never make a difference if we don't change the whole system, because the companies who don't make efforts are the one whose actions truly matters
Of seeing basic human rights and the sheer fucking politeness of minding your own business if others don't hurts you or the community being thrown out the window by entitled idiots
Of knowing, without a doubt, that you're not enough, that you can't change things alone. That you shouldn't even be alone with those decision, but the elite sure makes you feel like you are
I'm tired. Tired of being angry, tired of fighting, because it feels useless.
So some day, I ignore the news, pretend it's fine, pretend I've already given up anyway.
And it's scary, because if we do give up, things will never look better, and I don't want to pawn off the problem to yet another hypothetical 'next generation'.
I'm tired of feeling guilty for things I could never control
And I wish the people who could make a significant change were the one feeling guilty, for once
#Text #Rant #Vent #Kinda? #Climate change #Politic #I'm sorry if this feel really defaitist but I'm tired #And I think I don't do enough to because I can't not use a car #because I don't buy only bio & ethical stuff #because I enjoy modern comfort #But the thing is #I shouldn't have to feel bad. It's not my fault. I can't not live. #But putting all pressure on individuals is how mega corporation hide their own responsibility in the mess of things #And now all of us feel like we have to fix things #since the system won't #I wish it wasn't like this #I wish I still had faith in humanity7 notes
Hmm wouldnt it be a great day to starve myself :^)))) that sounds like fun!
I want to lose weight. I've put on 20 lbs in the past 2 years and even though thats not "a lot" comparably speaking, it's still effecting me in a negative way. Im 5'2", the fat hangs differently on my body than say if i was 5'8". Its such bullshit that my brain has managed to convince itself AGAIN that not eating solves this issue.
It doesnt!! I know it doesnt!! Why am i like this!!!!
I just want to look at my weight and tackle it in a normal way! Not immediately jump to the extremes.
Im still gonna be trying to eat as i have been. I'll also probably be talking to a doctor/ psychiatrist about this real soon. Im not letting myself fall back into that mindset.
Most adults shouldnt come in contact with child/teen fandom spaces until theyve been to therapy :/
#Pawsonal #Ask to Tag #Like if your first instinct when discovering like. Un/der/tale or F/N/a/F is to draw Adult Content you Need To Talk To A Professional #You are not the only one here and your actions dont exist in a void. Tag your shit and PUT WARNING BEFORE YOUR CONTENT AND EXPLANATIONS OF WHY YOUR CONTENT ISNT FOR CHILDREN #Im venting. #Vent
Okay, Y'ALL, I want some opinions on slapping kids as a punishment
Thank you all for your opinions, I wasn't sure anymore if it was bad or not and needed some reasons.
But recently I told a couple of jokes about it, and everyone looked at me weirdly and when I visited my best friend she said that that was not normal, so I got very confused, thank you all for your opinions :)
Ugh why'd I read that stupid greedfall article
All of my urls have a purpose i just have to have time to post on them..... Im going to be really sad if they take them away..... I work almost 6 days a week and dont have a laptop so everything is from my phone..... So its hard to keep up with everything... But i have a use for all of them so plz dont free them....
God do you even know people who have a full on suicidal breakdown because it rained on their commute to work bc I'm fucking done with life for sure.
I’m so mad. My lead has food poisoning right now and she came to work this morning, threw up a bunch, and work didn’t fucking send her home. And what’s worse is my room mate (who is also my coworker) is also sick and throwing up and my leads response was “if he can’t come in, let me know and I’ll show up to close.” I told her that she should not at all do that. She shouldn’t have been here in the fucking first place. If management wants someone out here, they should find someone to help cover the shifts. It’s not her job to find a replacement. She’s the sick one. Not to mention we’ve already contacted everyone in our department with little luck.
My gm better stay way the fuck away from me or I’m going to give him an entire ear full. I don’t care about the needs of the goddamn business, people come first. You take care of your employees because without them you’re fucking nothing.
Do you ever just cry because living is so expensive and you’re just a peon from the working class and you gotta choose between basic needs cause you can’t cover all your expenses with your wage
Me, immediately after sending an apology because I felt bad and shouldn’t have done what I did: oh god that was manipulative wasn’t it? Did I apologize to apologize or did I do it to be forgiven? God I’m a bad person
i can’t seem to do anything right. all of my conversations with my father end in me crying because i can’t control my fucking emotions. I should go outside.
I want to take a nap but noooooo because that’s too depression-y apparently. It’s 4 in the fucking afternoon and we’re gonna go get wine drunk and eat pizza