A picture I did today for my #jumpstartjanuary challenge where I try to keep drawing every day like I did last year.
I have this really big owl plush that I put on my tummy when it's hurting a lot and I decided to draw my sona with one of her own. It's a Squishmallow owl and I love him a lot. I have him, an 18" plush and a smaller 8" one that my husband got me a few years back. They are my comfort objects.
I have a few different chronic illnesses with my guts and having pressure against them helps. So, tummy owl <3
a proper reupload of all my pride merms (from throughout 2018)
there is still a post of them floating around here from a deleted blog as well as on tumblr
(didn't bother sticking them in the order created this time though)
stella.. always feel sad when ppl ask how stop selves stim esp if tell selves, need stop stim so get work done
should ask instead
is work make anxious? do stim help ease?
do stim help focus? or is disrupt?
if stim disrupt, why? how can replace?
& is brain stuck on decision?
say stella makes loudnoise, but loudnoise makes hard focus on words. so maybe stella start hum quiet, or put spinner in hand, bc both noise but not so loud. or say stella need both hands for type, which means no tangle. so stella might chew gum, or wiggle foot around - both motion!
plus, stella find if stuck on decision (like where do work, what work start 1st, etc) can make even MORE stim, bc stuckness = anxious since "need do, need do, need do" but just can't! so if slow down & ask what decision maybe need make, might also make less need for stim
obv stella not able make all suggest, bc depend on workspace & own needs but still question should not, "how do stop stim?" but "how do work w stim?"